Sunday, January 25, 2009

Just another weekend...

No one can prepare you for the unexpected to happen. Yet, it's somehow eerily slow-motion. So many things to deal with - so many things already done. So many things to think of - so many things that have been too thought out.

This weekend was nice. Busy, but nice. I got a lot of painting done on a giant canvas that I've been putting off working on for far too long. Tonight I'm a bit dissatisfied with a few parts and that has halted my working on it at the moment. Other than that, I think I'll like it. Question is; what the heck am I going to do with it? I don't even know what my living situation will be like next month - let alone where the heck I'll put any random artwork!

My mom is such an inspiration. She continues to face death unafraid. If it's her time to go, she's ready. If not, then she's ready to get on with whatever is next for her. In the meantime, we're enjoying our mom. Life is anything but normal. I find it strange that this past month has caused me to think fondly upon "normal", as if it were a dream. Events in life inevitably change you and cause growth. In a moments time you realize that you have become someone or something completely different, and the "normal" that you once knew, is now completely foreign.

I'm not complaining. I feel strong in the midst of this battle. Whatever the outcome, I trust God and find amazing peace and strength in that.

My hands are so dry right now. It's rediculous!