Change is good

*supposedly*

I have done enough  "changing" to my blog for one day.  2012 has brought with it the determination in me to "clean house", so to speak, and I have begun by changing my blog.  I feel like a girl who has been playing with her Mom's makeup; my face was full of a mess colors and emotions and then...I washed it all off.  It was actually sort of sad for me to say farewell to my old layout.  Those of you that have been around for awhile know that I have been really attached to it for several years now.  Well, today I said good bye.  And much like a dramatic 'bon voyage' on the last day of school, I took a picture to remember it by.

I still love the picture, but there is something very 'emo' about it; something that speaks of sadness and darkness.  Ironically, that's never what I saw in the picture.  I saw a young girl who was herself.  And that young girl was looking out over the city/world at what lays ahead in life - with hope.  But that all changed recently.

Viewing my blog from a fresh set of eyes I came to realize that it may give off a more troubled feel; a feel which is the exact opposite of me.  I'm a determined person; sure of who I am and where I stand.  What I love about the picture is that I am that girl (in a sense), looking at the world with hope, faith, and a little dab of child-like imagination.  But none of that changes how others could view it, and in my heart I know it is time to move on.  *cue the break-up music*

fade to black... END SCENE

It was a tear jerker there for a moment wasn't it?
Carry on.  Let it out. 

Now, get yourself a tissue and clean up your face.  It's hard to read when you're all emotional like you are.  C'mon, get it together because now comes the happy bit:

[from a black screen the sun begins to rise.  birds flutter about and happy music follows suit.]

With faith I look forward to the road ahead.  I press on, quite like I did in Jr. High; when my Mom visited school and caught me in the hallway with black cherry lipstick on and I realized that it was time to grow up.  I washed it off, not because I was in trouble; I honestly don't even believe that my Mom ever said anything about my horrific "expressive" makeup, rather, I recall it as a moment where I felt just a little silly, and therfore I made the decision to grow up.  It's time.  It's time for a fresh start.  It is time to wash off the technicolor dream coat and begin anew.

Cheers to new beginnings in your lives this year! 

Now, let's hope I find a background that I don't hate in two days and have to change... and change... and change again.  'Cause I am definitely that girl.

Today May be THE Day

To change my blog for 2012.

Wish me luck.

New Year, New Blog?

Happy New Year!

With all that has been going on...
With all that will be coming up in this new year...
And with all of the stupid new security things on this blog site...
  
          ... I may need to create a new blogger.

I know, I know, it's sad.
But I'm not leaving.  Per-say.
And who knows if I will really actually do it.

The problem is that my old email account was randomly shut down. 
As in, adios, see-ya, peace out!
It was my "whatever" account.  It was the account I used to set up lots of "things" because I never actually had to check it. Therefore I avoided all the update-emails overload.  It was the email address that I used to start this blog, and the blogs that paved the way before this one.  It was a brilliant plan, until gmail decided to 86 my Mom's account, therefore zapping mine into oblivion as well.  Therein lays the problem, at some point blogspot is going to require me to "confirm" my email account.  And when that day comes, I'm screwed.

All of that to say, with my new plans for the new year, perhaps it's time to start over?  Begin anew? 

Thoughts?

IT IS FINISHED!

Finished.  Started.  Same difference when it comes to writing.  I find that a huge mountain is dominated and conquered when all of my hours and hours, days and weeks, of writing are finally complete and I find myself sitting in front of a completed work.  Finished.

After the victory lap around the city....okay, it's more like a victory nap but let's not be technical about it, the truth sinks in.  This "finish" is actually just the "start".  See, now I have something to work on.  Now I have what could potentially be a load of crap, ready to sift through, weed out, pluck apart, and rebuild into something that is of substance and worth.

That, my friends, is where I am.

Last year, 'Lily of the Valley' was placed on a shelf.  It still sits there to this day.  Perhaps many years from now she will be dusted off and rewritten.  This creation is different.  It's my baby.  This isn't a novel, per-say.  Well, no, it's not per-say at all, it's totally not a novel.  I was a rebel.  This book is my Memoir.  Witty.  Comical.  And the dead-straight truth.  Self-deprecating humor and all.  All the way from busting my face open the day before 3rd grade pictures, to breaking my sister's ribs trying to "fly her" when we were in our twenties.  The good.  The bad.   The ugly.  It's all there.

Now I just have to rework it!

Another NANOWRIMO Underway...

Failing to update you on my amazing weekend away, I have stopped in to say a quick 'hello' to my dear friends. 

HELLO!

I'm knee deep in procrastinating guilt at my lack of writing thus far this November.  Life has kept me busy indeed.  I'm now 6,000 words into my month.  At this point I *should* be crossing word 28,339 off my board.  Crap!

Rest assured that I am thinking about my blogging shortcomings and wishing that I had time to type more, but I simply do not!

I leave you with these small tidbits of life:

- half and half can be subbed for "heavy cream" in recipes.

- gas prices are going up and I am extremely poor

- I had mini corn dogs for dinner last night, and I love it.

- Learning lessons is something I fail at, seeing as TWICE this week alone I've been caught singing (rather loudly) by my neighbor.

- The shop vac I want is $37.99 at True Value.  I cannot afford that.  The nice lady there told me it's $19.99 on sale the week after Thanksgiving.  Holler!

- The lady at Walgreens always makes me smile.  When I walk in she's always like, " HAAAAY GIRL!"  I spelled 'hey' with an 'a' to give you full affect.

- Is is 'affect' or 'effect'?  Flippin' heck, I will NEVER learn the difference between the two!

- I watched a tutorial on how to do 60s still bridal (hair) buns.  It may be my "new" hairstyle.  We'll see.

- A friend is crashing on my couch for the next two nights.

- Beans is adorable as ever. 

- Ivy is a feisty little talkfest, but she's super cuddly at night and I love that.

- The nights are coming faster these days.

- I ran out of chap stick the other day, so I used olive oil.


I guess that's it!  My brain shut off.  I hope it kicks back on in a bit.  I need to get my word count up!
Three of the previous four sentences began with the word "I".  Man, "I" must be full of myself!

A New Week(end) A New Adventure

My sister and I joined two of our Aunt's, an extended Cousin, and a friend at a cabin "Up North" this past weekend.  We had a great time - and a great adventure.  I've been so excited to blog about it but I cannot find "the picture" that I have in my mind that I want to post.  Maybe I'll never find it.  I will, however, tell you about our trip!

Stay tuned...

I miss alot when I'm gone...

from blogger that is.